SeegPeopleoff
麦克斯·毕尔勃姆/MaxBeerboh
Ianotgoodatit.Todoitwellseestooneoftheostdiff?icultthgstheworld,andprobablyseessotoyou,too.
ToseeafriendofffroWaterlootoVauxhallwereeasyenough.Butwearenevercalledontoperforthatsallfeat.Itisonlywhenafriendisgogonalongishjourney,andwillbeabsentforanguishti,thatweturnupattherailwaystation.Thedearerthefriendandthelohejourney,andthelohelikelyabsentratiototheserionessoftheoasion,andtothedepthofourfeelg.
Inaroo,orevenonadoorstep,weesthegenuesorrowwefeel.Nordowordsfail.Thereisnoawkwardness,rat,oherside.Thethreadofourtiacyhasnotbeensheleave-takgisanidealone.Whynot,then,leavetheleave-takgatthat?Always,departgfriendsiplorenottobothertoetotherailwaystatio.Always,wearedeaftotheseeies,knogthetobenotquitescere.Thedepartgfriendswouldthkitveryoddofifwetooktheattheirword.Besides,theyreallydowanttoseeaga.Andthatwishisheartilyreciprocated.Wedulyturnup.Andthen,ohthen,whatagulfyawns!Westretchourarsvalyacrossit.Wehaveutterlylosttouch.Wehavenothgatalltosay.Wegazeateachotherasdubanialsgazeathuanbegs.We“akeion”—andsuversation!Weknowthatthesefriendsarethefriendsfrowhowepartedht.Theyknowthatwehavenotaltered.Yet,onthesurface,everythgisdifferent;andthetensionissuchthatweonlylongfortheguardtoblowhiswhistleandputaothefarce.
OnaldgreyofstweekIdulyturnedupatEton,toseeoffanoldfriendwhowasstartgforArica.
ht,wehadgivenhiafarewelldner,whichsadnesswaswellgledwithfestivity.Yearsprobablywouldepsebeforehisreturn.Soofightneverseehiaga.Notigntheshadowofthefuture,wegailycelebratedthepast.Wewereasthankfultohaveknowasweweregrievedtolosehi;andboththeseeotionswereadea.Iterfectfarewell.
Andnow,herewewere,stiffandself-nscioofor;andfradthedowoftherailway-carriagewasthefaceofourfriend;butitwasasthefaceofastranger—astrangeranxiotoplease,anappealgstranger,anawkwardstranger.“Haveyougoteverythg?”askedoneof,breakgasilence.“Yes,everythg,”aidourfriend,withapleasantnod.“Everythg,”herepeated,withtheephasisofaybra.“You’llbeabletora,”saidI,thoughtheprophecyhadalreadybeenadeorethanonce.“Oh,yes,”hesaidwithnvi.HeaddedthatthetrawentstraightthroughtoLiverpool.Thisfactseedtostrikeasratherodd.Weexgedgnces.“Doesn’titsatCrewe?”askedoneof.“No,”saidourfriend,brief?ly.Heseedalostdisagreeable.Therewasalongpae.Oneof,withanodandaforcedsileatthetraveler,said“Well!”Thenod,thesileandtheunangonosylble,werereturnedioly.Anotherpaewasbrokenbyoneofwithaf?itofughg.Itwasanobviolyassudf?it,butitservedtopasstheti.Thebtleoftheptforwasunabated.Therewasnosignofthetra’sdeparture.Release—ours,andourfriend’s—wasnotyet.
Mywandergeyealightedonaratherportlyiddle-agedanwhowastalkgearlyfrotheptfortoayoungdyatthedowbutooours.Hisf?eprof?ilewasvaguelyfailiarto.TheyoungdywasevidentlyAri,andhewasevidentlyEnglish;otherwiseIshouldhaveguessedfrohisipressiveairthathewasherfather.IwishedIuldhearwhathewassayg.Iwassurehewasgivgtheverybestadvice;andthestrongtendernessofhisgazewasreallybeautiful.Heseedagiedit?
Inaf?shIrebered.TheanwasHubertLeRos.ButhowgedscestIsawhi!Thatwassevenhtyearsago,theStrand.Hewasthen(asual)outofane,andborrowedhalf-a-.Itseedaprivilegetolendanythgtohi.Hewasalwaysagitor,andaanofsoberhabit.But,likeanyothersofhiskd,HubertLeRos(Idonot,ofurse,givetheactualnabywhichhewasknown)driftedspeedilyawaytotheprovces;andI,likeeveryoneelse,ceasedtoreberhi.